Gut Feelings

I’m sorry that I haven’t been updating much lately but I’ve been so busy with starting uni and all. One thing I haven’t mentioned here is that I don’t have many friends. Maybe a couple acquaintances that I hang out with. I’ve always envied people who had friends.

Last year, I had a bad ‘breakup’ with a close friend of mine. And it was because I wasn’t feeling respected by her or anyone in our little circle. It was me, her, her boyfriend and two other girls. I’d always find myself being thrown words at or attacked passive aggressively. Until, after I’d gone to visit my family over Christmas, I had such a good time that I came back feeling like I didn’t need anyone to make me happy and the things that didn’t bring me happiness should not be in my life. When one day I decided to initiate a ‘time out’ from her- well actually all of them. She then asked the next week what was going on, I confronted her, and she told me that she’s not going to change and that was it.

Let me say Id thought I would regret it but I didn’t. It may have been the most freeing decision I made recently. I woke up every day with no expectations of what the day was going to bestow upon me. I sat, ate and talked with different people. I established good relationships with people from my year group. I got work finished. I travelled alone and had a fucking great time doing it! I came home every day feeling free of negative energy and s thankful to god for being by my side!

I guess what I’m trying to say is, I think the best advice I’ve gathered from my life experiences so far is that whatever doesn’t bring you happiness or joy is unnecessary. Get rid of it. Eliminate it from your life. Trust me, you’ll discover more aspects of yourself that you never even knew existed. When something feels right, there is a reason behind it. A reason behind that feeling that you’re getting in your gut. This is your life. Yourself. Your soul. Honour it. And I’m just going to leave it at that, folks. As usual, if you have an opinion that you want to share with the rest of us, comment below!

In the meantime, take care of yourself and have a good day.

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